Islam - Muslims & Preacher

I am a Muslim, and thankful for being one.

Eventhough I don't cover my hair, I still performs the other duties as a Muslim - prayers, fasting, recites Holy Quran, eating only halal foods, no alcohols and no sex. There are actually many types of Muslim in this world. But what I wanna talk about is

1) The Muslims that are only good to Allah SWT but not to humans - These people are faithful to God, they perform prayers, recites Quran everyday, and does all kind of worships. BUT, only that. They don't perform well as a human being, because I have witnessed myself how they act. Some of them bumped into another people but didn't even apologize. Some didn't returned the smile from strangers. Some didn't thanked people after been helped. Some say bad things to the people that are not like them. Manners is important in life and hereafter.

2) The Muslim womens that covered up all to their face and dressed all black - This is not the image of a real Islam. We want to be welcoming and approachable. Dressing up that way is like showing you don't want to socialize with other people - the non Muslims. Covering up your face is not necessary, but why do you do that? The Arab women do that because their place is a desert, full of dusts so they would want to get protected. But we are Malaysians, the air is alright and we could breathe just fine. Wearing colourful clothes would show that Muslim women are just like any other normal women, we can do fashion and dressed up nicely but we have limitations to protect us from committing sins. Make other people understand, even the to other Muslims that we are also human, and we are not extreme.

3) The faithful Muslims that only socialize with faithful Muslims - I get it if you only want to befriends with the people who can lead you to the right path, but do you remember that preaching other people to worship Allah SWT is also a duty as a Muslim? So please, preach people like me - the not-so-good Muslim together to become better. This is why the Muslims are separated into two - the good Muslims and the bad Muslims. And this basically give the impression to the bad Muslims that 'you guys are only nice to God and the people like you, but not to us because you guys are not kind-hearted at all.'

4) Preacher - Please, this is the most important one. One day, I went to my school office. I was writing with my left hand because I am left handed. (In Islam, the left hand is not preferred because we use it to wash our private parts). But it is not haraam or sinful, because if we find it hard to use our right hand, we are excused.
"Allah wants ease for you, not hardship." (Al-Baqarah 2:185). So there is this middle aged guy who was wearing a 'songkok' said to me that I was writing wrong - with harsh tone. I tried to be nice so I just smiled but then he said 'There you write with your left hand, its wrong!' with a rude face just went off. I was shocked, DEFINITELY. That is not how you preach, old man. There are also many preacher out there that mocked people in their preach, use harsh words and have the absolute wrong idea about the bad Muslims. How do the non Muslims want to see this positively? How do the bad Muslims want to change after been mocked? Preacher should preach to all kind of people, not to the only one kind of people - the good Muslims.

5) The Muslims that mocked the other Muslims - This can go to the bad Muslims that mocked the good Muslims or the other way around. When you don't go to the mosque, you can't say that people that go the mosque are not that good. When you don't cover your hair, you can't say that the Muslims that cover their hair also commit other sins. When you touch the opposite gender publicly, you can't say the others that didn't do, actually do it privately. To the better Muslims out there, when you see a Muslim girl covered up their hair but dressed tightly, you can't mocked them. When you see someone who don't worships God as often as you do, you can't say that is the reason for their miserable life. EVERYONE PLEASE, RESPECT ONE ANOTHER. SEE THE GOOD IN EVERYTHING.BE POSITIVE. Do not just be good Muslim, but also be someone with a good heart. Do not be an extremist. Please.

Officialy Employed - Significant Sign

Good news. I'm happy and feels so lucky. Alhamdulillah.
So now I am officially hired as a worker at Significant Sign company. All thanks to my dear friend, Amira Shahzan for making my way into her mom's company. Significant Sign is a design company. I guess that will give me a lot of benefits such
1) Working experience
2) Design softwares (CorelDRAW & Photoshop) knowledge
3) Learn to use banner printing machines
4) Overcome my social anxiety - yes I'm serious
5) An early knowledge to Art & Designs

Couldn't help but to feel lucky. I'm making this such a big deal, as if I just graduated and finally own a job. The reality is I'm only 18, waiting for university acceptance letters, trying to find a part-time job to be a better person but actually got stucked up at getting jobs because I never got any response for my applications. So there's two months left before university, I thought I'm gonna live it boring, doing nothing. But then I got a text from my friend saying if I were serious about getting a job at her mom's company - which I asked her before with zero expectation. And she said, I could start right away. Ha, life is so full of surprises.

I had a job before. Only for two days at Popular Bookstore. They were going to restock the whole thing so they hired extra staffs for two days to help them up with. It was a fun experience for me because I had my friends with me - besides I  did a pretty good job without having any difficulties.

My first day at Significant today was going well. I didn't embarassed myself or showed up late. For the first two hours I didn't do anything because there weren't any orders yet. So I was just basically awkward and looking around. Then Kak Zira called me, haha never thought she was gonna toured me around the office and introduced me to the staffs. I feel appreciated - cheesy. As hours passes, I was kinda get adjusted to the enviroment and I  felt comfortable after having conversations with all the staffs. I learned to use CorelDRAW today and pick up the phone and greet customers. I had fun :)

A Day Out With My Mom - Art Tools Shopping, LCCI, Tesco

Today I went out with my mom. Here are the things that we do:

1) I went to school (ex) to signed up for LCCI certificate. I thought that LCCI is a certificate that Prinsip Perakaunan students get for their previous folio assignments in high school, like a grading certificate or something. But it turns out to be a test. Yes, you have to sit for a test to earn the certificate. I didn't know. If I knew, I would never bother coming to school. SERIOUSLY, I'm not going to revise this subject over again when especially I'm not good at it - and put myself in a bad mood. The thing is, the UPU that I filled in has nothing to do with account - only one, business.

2) Next, we went to Sri Gawa to do some art tools shopping, since my first choice in UPU is Art & Designs. So I gotta enchanced my drawing skills. Or maybe, BUILD my drawing skills because honestly, my art skills is a grade C- (graded by myself). So why do I choose Art & Designs in the first place? The reasons are:
    a) I am honestly, truly interested in designing - whether its graphic or fashion or furniture, I'm interested in ALL.
    b) The career field that I have decided for myself comes from this major , such - creative director, books illustrator, fashion designer, furniture designer, architect, etc.
    c) According to my logic (Khayrin's logic), being an art student can make me sounds more interesting haha.
    d) My drawings are one of a kind. Like when you see it, you know its my artwork. I'm not saying that its good (which is its really not good). But I have own idea, my own characteristics in my arts.

3) Lastly, we went to Tesco, the original plan is to buy lemons (for my diet), but we ended up buying another 9 things. Luckily we didn't carry a  trolley with us, or else we would spend about RM300, like ususal. But today we only spent RM50. That's quite an achievement - went home feeling satisfied with the groceries.

* LOL, I didn't really say a thing about my mom. Okay so when we went to Sri Gawa, we used my mom's BB1M student voucher, she's a Master in communication major - we finished it all there.Then when we went to Tesco, I went to toilet and coming back, saw my mom looking clueless waiting - looking cute. Then when we almost arrived home, we bumped into a shirtless guy - looking funny so we laughed. We talked a lot in the car, but I couldn't remember what because I wasn't paying much attention ;p

Funny Ex Classmates

To all my classmates of 4SN6/5A - Khairunajwa, Dalia Liyana, Haziqah Khadri, Amira Izzaty, Aimi Syazwani, Qistina Alyani, Izzati Mohamad, Syzarin Amielia, Laiyinah, Syikeen Razlan, Arif Anuar, Aiman B, Surachai Airak, Saw Gik Thong, Navindren Nair, Ashfan, Adi Afifi, Irfan, Aqil, Amirul, Shyun Jiun, Lew Ting Chia, Kasthuri, Heng Li Lin, Swathi, Low Wei Keat, Thivashini, Zulaika. And Khairani Saad.

* don't bother if your name comes first, tenth or last 'cause I love you guys equally - but I have my faves ;)

THANK YOU FOR BEING SO COOL, SO FUNNY, SO LAID BACK THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GRADES, HOMEWORKS AND EXAMS. Thank you for those who annoyed with my weird laughs but still think its cute, as if!  :)

Some of the screenshots of my conversation with them :

 

I will be missing you guys. Muah!

*No, but really thank you for being part of my high school life. Otherwise, it would be really hard.

Immaturity And The Douchebag

My immaturity drives people crazy - my sister, some guy, and me. Is immaturity a personality, or is it just an unwise act for adults? - the 18 years old me. If it is a personality, I will feel a lot better. I don't mind being immature - making hasty decisions, saying things without thinking, get obsessed over little things. But I do have problem with people around me (people that I give a shit on their opinion) if  they think my immaturity is something negative.

Like what happened just now :
There is this guy, who happens to be my brother's friend named motherfuckaabullshittingongirlswhenimnotevenhot. Or we can call him FH. So FH have been chatting with me for weeks, mingling around. So he thought he liked me - eventhough I know I'm not his type, which his type is those girls who are not internationally internet sensation, but sensation enough to the Malays social-network-typical-society.

Case 1 - Okay the thing here is, he asked me to go out on date to THIS place, where he had already taken my close friend, to THIS place on a date. So I don't know how could he be so dumb, using the same tactis on two friends?

Case 2 - He asked my brother if he could be more than just friends with me (which deep down inside my brother won't agree because he knows FH is a real asshole to girls). My bro said that its up to me, but do I want it? NAHH, of course nahh. Because you're just a tall guy with muscular arms with no functioning brain when it comes to I HATE YOU, DO YOU HAVE A FUCKING IDEA ABOUT THAT? But when I rejected - nicely, a few days later my another friend told me that he told her he likes my friend that he brought on the date. I know, WTF? WTF?

Why am I so angry? - He knows, he knows that I rarely open up to relationships with guys. So when I opened up to him, he filled me with bullshits. He told me he likes me, but the truth is he was just desperate for girls. So why say things when you don't mean it. He is a friend to my brother, like don't you have a fucking respect to my brother that you treat me like I'm 2 cents? Oh and do you know that, EVERY GIRLS THAT HAVE TALKED TO YOU THINK YOU'RE ANNOYING AS HELL? Pretending to be sad and weak and innocent, like do you even awake? Like you're making yourself look like a JOKE, you're a JOKE and please be embarassed about it.

* Now I see why you're 20 and still single, because you are so full of bullshits. 'I like you' to Girl 1, 'I think I've fall in love with you' to Girl 2. 'I need you' to Girl 3.

Conclusion : I was so angry that I blocked him on social networks, asked my friend to not talk to him, asked my brother to never brought him home - cause if he does, I will throw a hot water on that douche's face. Was I being immature? Yes. Did he deserved that? No, he deserves worse. Some girls would just ignored him, which what I planned to do but I CAN'T, I CAN'T. I want him to know that I HATE HIM. He has to know that he is someone TO HATE. I'm trying to keep my anger classy, I'm trying. Though I have ruined it by 30 percent.

So I see now, maybe I'm 18 and immature, but you're 20 and stupid.